Goodbye My Love

Yesterday we had to say goodbye to Spike. He was my first. Well, my first as an adult. Everything in my world revolved around him. More than I knew until it didn’t. I forget to feed the cat because they got food at the same time after our walks. Every time I walk into the dining room I look to see if he had an accident in his corner. When I walk in the door I expect to hug him. As I’m sleeping upstairs I wonder what he is doing downstairs because he’s not with me.

Spike was the first dog I really bonded with, yes I bonded with the dog I grew up with from age 3-19, but Spike was the first that relied solely on me. There was a time that it was just me and Spike against the world, he was my best friend, my only friend. He was my reason to work multiple jobs, he was the reason I went home at night. He consoled me when I was sad. Now I am sad and don’t have him to make it better.

Author: timewillt3ll

Spike is my best friend. We live in Lancaster, PA Spike has been loved by us since June 2011 when he was rescued from his previous life Spike became a tripawd 2/2/17 when he lost his left hind leg to the combination of an old injury and cancer We lost Spike to his cancer 2/7/17 my heart is broken.

12 thoughts on “Goodbye My Love”

  1. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I lost my lil guy Ziggy to cancer in November. I miss him every second of every day, but I’m so grateful he was part of my family. We get so much back from loving them. We recently went to a shelter to adopt a new family member. We found Roo. She had been hit by a car and lost her back leg. She is doing amazing and has helped our family in so many ways. Sending you hugs and I hope with each day that things will start to feel better for you.

  2. I am so deeply sorry and I know this grief is deep. It feels like an ocean and I’m trying to tread water in that same ocean right now. I hope you can find solace in this community and your memories – we do understand how much you are hurting.

  3. I’m so very sorry to hear about your sweet Spike. So many of us here know exactly what you’re saying and the impact of losing your love. Peace to you. <3

  4. Ohhhh I’m so sorry. There is so much grief in your voice, I wish I could help somehow. Please know that the Tripawds Helpline is here for you. Many of us walked in your shoes at one point and totally understand what you’re feeling. It hurts like hell, we know.

    When you start feeling like you’re going to lose it, remember that Spike’s spirit didn’t go anywhere, he’s still with you and always will be. True love never fades.

    {{{{hugs}}}}}

  5. I am so sorry for you loss…. It is heartbreaking and like others have said … this journey… when it ends .. is a pain like no other. Know that Spike is always with you. He will watch out for you, ride on your heart and shoulder and always be by your side when you need him the most.

    (((( hugs))))
    alison with spirit shelby in her heart

  6. What happened? I can’t believe this – I thought he just had his surgery a couple of days ago? This is so horrible, and I am so so sorry for you. While many of us have walked in your shoes, the truth is that many of us also had a little bit more time, and got to see our dog enjoy life as a tripawd. I am so sorry.

    1. He did just have his surgery. Either the cancer was worse than thought prior to surgery, or surgery caused it to metastasize super quickly into is colon and spinal cord.
      All we could do was treat his symptoms. I feel like we made the best decisions for him with the information we had at the time. Looking back and having the knowledge we now have there were some things I wish we could have done differently.
      My beautiful boy will forever be missed

  7. I am so sorry for your loss. It does hurt like hell. Watch for his signs he will be there. It may take a little bit for you to see them but he will send them

    hugs
    Michelle & Angel Sassy

  8. Spike has not left you. He has, simply in his wisdom, gone ahead to forge a path that you will join him on. He is no longer in pain, runs free, and will always check on you until you meet again. He wants you to be brave without him and know that every step you take from now on places you one step closer to him.

  9. I am so sorry to hear you lost your sweet Spike. This journey is so hard and we go through it hoping (secretly sometimes) that it is going to turn out okay. He was yours and you were his. So very sorry for your loss.
    w

  10. I am so very sorry – my heart is broken for you. I wish I had some words of wisdom. I won’t lie, it is so very painful. Like you can’t breathe. Please reach out of you need someone to talk to – a friendly voice. This community is forever your family and we are here for you. It will get easier it just takes a lot of time and tears. It’s ok to grieve – we have to – it’s part of the process. Spike would want you to be happy again and you will. Please use the helpline if you need a friendly/supportive voice who has been right where you are.

    )))HUGS(((

    Julie and Spirit Buddy

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